a movie review of The Terminal and other things I did today

Well Cable is Out and Well nothing exciting has happend. I did have a busy day today. I watched two movies. While writing the first post I saw Superman IV which I loved and I saw the Terminal, which was a great film but was awfully long though. The only problem I had with the film was that Tom Hanks had a terrible accent he sounded so much like Balki from Perfect Strangers and it sounded so corny it was hard to understand what he was saying. Stanley Tucci playing the INS head was awesome he does play a great role as the key buracratic dickhead who can't allow Hanks into the country. Catherine Zeta Jones was amazingly beautiful as the flight attendant who falls in love with the quirky guy living in the airport. What surprised me more was that she pulled off sounding so American even though she is from Wales. The minor characters like the food service guy and baggage handler and janitor were halarious people each playe there role well done but sometimes there story was a little too done for there own good. the Food Service guy needed Hanks to play Cyrano to attract the Customs woman that he has a crush on. Later on they get married. Which I never understood. They just met for a few seconds and then they get married.

Stanley Tucci role as the head of the INS is what making sure that everything Tom Ridge is talking about protecting in Homeland Security.

But all in all the movie was excellent. I found the film to be **** out ***** four out of five
because it was it was too long.

Well aside from watching the Terminal, I took a nap and slept for an hour and a half. I was so tired and infact I plan on sleeping once I finish writing this. I did what I was setting out to do. I did do most of the things I planned but I did do some research but I spent most of the day relaxing watching tv with mom. Or napping in my bed.I think I love my bed when its nicely made and nicely folded rather than in a big pile. I guess I will fix that by making my bed every day. Maxine is sleeping on the couch again and mom is reading in her room and dad is reading and his. So I should be doing something productive but I am keeping myself entertained by writing.
I ate too much dinner and I feel sick, like I am going to throw up but I am also feeling like I am going to explode. Either way its not a good feeling. I am going to lie down and relax maybe I will close my eyes and dream. Tommorow is going to be a busy day but I hope to stay asleep for another few hours. I am dead tired right now My body is telling me I should go to sleep.

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I had a wonderful dinner with the family, and well I am watching Superman IV. Though the film is a cheesey film and totally an 80s with Jon Cryer film its still rocks. I love Superman and I have said it again that I plan on camping out for its release date for Superman Returns next year. I know that a lot of those nerds do that for Star Wars, I mean I could order the tickets online which I am going to ask dad if I can use his credit card to do to but I figure it will still rock if I can do that but it will still be awesome to watch the movie. I am still a big ass fan of the man in tights.

I have always been a fan of Superman since I was 5. I think Superman and I have a lot of things in common, we both have secrets that we can't really share with people for the fear that people don't really explain them or we would be made fun of or that people would laugh at or be hurt.

Also, we have our honesty to protect, plus I have the Clarkness inside of me that I am so nice to everyone that I am such a nerd that everyone doesn't know what to get from. I see myself more of a Clark like Jillian told me. I am such a bizarre person that no one knows if I am the real deal or not. I am ackward and strange but I am smart and aware of my surroundings but I have this secret that I am afraid to share my true emotions to the world.
I hope that I don't hurt anyone by letting them know my true feelings to anybody. That is why I never allowed people to know about my illnesses and I bullshitted people. Its all a psyschological. If I told them the truth, they would labled me a freak or treated me like I was a nut job, but if I hid the truth from them they would see me as just a mild mannered person. Either way I am happy being labled normal. I guess being me, is hard. I hate that I am torn to tell people who the real me is. I mean the human side is telling me tell the truth that I am mentally ill that I have a hard time tellling what is real and whats is a delusion. I guess writing about it is easier. I guess thats what life is about with my condition. Thinking about! Struggling about life is hard. I fear I have lost all my friends if I simply tell the truth to them.

I am planning on working today and piecing it all together and working on a way to explaining it to all my mind to make logical sense of it. I have to figure it out. I have a problem. I have to solve it and I have to right the wrongs. So I don't do them again. I think Jillian, could help me out with that, first be honest with her and tell her how I feel. Tell Vivian tommorow I have to see her immediately so I don't go off the deep end. I need someone to talk to. Get a reality check! Solve my issues. Snap out of this fantasy world I've created and try to focus on to reality. Focus on real things do things that are real.

OK, today I am i am planning on doing things like working on this blog. Thats real! I am going to e-mail Silivia, thats real. I am going to talk things over with myself, thats real. I am going to work things over. I am going to see some pics that someone scanned and retouched them and put them on this blog thats real.

So far, I feel better now I am going to take a deep breath and begin. OK :-) I am going to talk with dad.