A day can't be that boring or could it

What a boring Sunday this truly has been. I finished cleaning the house and taking a shower. So I am bored. There really is nothing on t.v. and I am to tired to really watch something. Well I am doing ok, I had a great night last night. I hung out with Warren and Kevin. The night was pretty fun, but they seemed like they were always tired after a few hours of getting there. I am so tired right now and my muscles are aching me. I am trying to tell myself to relax and not feel the pain that is wrapping me up.

I am glad that I went out last night , I thought I would be bored out of my mind and well I am stuck at home again on a boring Sunday afternoon. I could of gone to the grocery store but I would feel really sore just walking out. So I am going to wait. Well, last night A Beautiful Mind was on t.v. and I began to think of John Nash. That guy is truely a great guy and a hero to many people. John Nash maybe schizophrenic but he has learned to battle his demons and win the Nobel Prize in Economics.

He is truely a great person to look up to. I am tired and I am feeling really sleepy so I may just take a nap and wake up feeling less sore.

Well I have been really busy and I haven't had time to write much on the blog. I have plenty of great pictures of my trip that I will scan once I have my modem working again. Weather outside is hot and really awful. I wish I could enjoy the sun but I feel like the heat is preventing me from doing anything about it. I wish I could live in a colder or a sun free enviroment.

This week, I am planning on writing more on my new book I am meeting Nancy tommorow to talk with her about my problems. I am excited but at the same time I am doubtful anything will happen.

Well I am still trying to piece myself together and keep myself from going crazy but its hard for me.

I haven't seen Amy yet since I arrived back and I only spoke with her once on the phone. I am wondering what is going on with her. Its not like I am angry with her. I just want to know whats up with her. I am wondering if she even knew that I called last night. I did get home around 10 :30 and I started as if I couldn't sleep. I am thinking now that I can sleep I will sleep for at least 7 hours a night to get my body back into the same rhythm I did when I was in Kingsbury.

Meditation has been slowly taking its set backs I am trying harder but I feel like I am overly distracted by the smallest thing. I am trying to figure out what can I do to fix it. I am wondering maybe I should do it in my room. Its clean and it can be very peaceful. So my next meditation will be this evening before going to bed and I will try to do it without the constant interuptions that are plaguing my mind.

I am doing good mentally but physically I feel worse then before. I am having more cramps and pains and I feel really sick.

Whatelse. I am going to go out later today with my family to have a pitcher. I can't wait and want to show them my new meditation tools. Maybe if I go out with them I will feel less bored and less pain. (WHO KNOWS)

I am going to write more later but for now I am going to take a cat nap.

meow.