I had a thought.

A few days ago, TBS aired Zoolander. Well I am a former model and well I even know a lot of models from Steph's work and Amanda's work and Derek Zoolander (Ben Stiller) plays a dead on role as the egotistic and stupid world of male modeling. I was wondering if I do lose weight, cut down on my cigarettes I should go back to modeling. Yea. I won't be Hansel though his mysticism and crazy views of the world or be a dimwit like Derek. But I should start by modeling small stuff and talk with Jillian and ask her to take some pictures or headshots of me to pass around.

Really, fashion is a great passion of mine and I love the lights and the camera focused on me. I have to first lose a lot of weight but not be skinny but I have to bulk up a little cause right now I am flabby. I am going to wash my hair and wash my face. It was a terrible idea I thought of but I would like to see if I can still put my head up in become a terrific male model. It won't be easy but I have to start from scratch again. I will brush my teeth and make myself model looking. Well, I would have an agent and I would be concerned about modeling.

I will discuss it again with my parents and see what they think. I know ,that I have a lot of work that needs to be done before I become a major hit but I just want to talk with them to tell them my proposal.

A proposal would include: How much it would be to get my teeth done. My hair become smooth and take care of myself and that I would really need to quit smoking. I will talk with modeling agencies here in Houston and other places to see what is the look for men like me. I would first have to lose about 30lbs but I don't want to starve myself. I have to do alot of thinking of keeping my looks as good as before. I want to figure out a way to lose weight, I can't walk do to LUPUS and I can't do much but I hate that I am so flabby. I will also have to shave my body to get that smooth look. I will buy the Male Nair once I have money for it. I will hide it from my parents. I would love to go back on the runway or at least on stage to look good and even be concidered sexy again.

I also have to cut down my sweets and also stop eating midnight snacks. Really I am going to talk with my dad to help me get these things off my chest. I am going to lose weight and I am going to find ways to buff myself. I hate that I have strong calves but my chest looks like a 60 year old.

Well that is just an idea, even if I don't become a model I will lose weight at least 30 lbs by October. So I am going to cut down everything I eat. I will not eat sweets and cut down on junk food. So I can be skinny. My goal is to lose 10 a month. I will slowly do it, I will eat only vegetables and a little bit of meat and chicken. NO MORE COKES OR soft drinks. I will drink juice and ice tea. I wanna be thin again. I will also talk with Nancy this week to get myself more trim.

I will shower and shave everyday even if it doesn't look like I need to shave I'll do it. Just to keep myself young. I will also get a haircut every 3 weeks.


So here is what my major plan. LOSE 30 LBS by October. Right now I weigh 227 I want to be 160 lbs. So everyday I will find ways to lose weight without starving myself. If I am hungry I will eat a vegetable or a fruit. Something to keep me from starving.