Hey Readers,
Don't Think I have forgotten you all,but I have been busy. I have had a busy December. Well for starters my family is in town. Both my grandmother and uncle are here visiting me. I love that they are here but at times it gets to be boring. Plus I have been very sick. So what do you expect me to do. I am sick and I rarely get the chance to write on here since everytime I try to I am interupted by doing something else.
Well for one thing, I am glad I have the house finally to myself to write. I hope that everyone's Christmas was well. Mine was awesome. I finally got all 4 Superman Movies. So that is a great thing. Well, I have also got a lot of clothes. Which I needed since my wardrobe was beginning to look dull. I have some new underwear and t-shirts. So I am set for life. I also have been busy writing a new book. Yea I am excited I haven't really focused my time in writing my blog so I am sorry. My family has taken way to much of my time.
You know the silly thing, is that eventhough I am sick. I am trying quickily to feel better. I have had terrible headaches as well as pain in my jaw. :-( Well I am doing well. I have been thinking alot and I have been counting down the days till they are gone.
I mean I am sicker now that everyone is at the house and that I can't breathe because its so dry. Well I am still single. And I began to think how excited I am that I am going to start a new job, in 2 weeks. I am going to be a ghostwriter for a columnist. So I am going to have a lot of fun. Well I wish I was rich though, so I wouldn't have to ask about money but again I am still finincally broke. I am going to try something new, I am going to save my money and quit smoking. Yea I know I've said that before but seriously though, I am going to economize my money. I am going to save every cent I make. So I can be able to buy some clothes like I did last week.
I finally understand that Money doesn't grow on trees. Maybe with a new wardrobe I'll be able to find the mate for me.
Hehe!
Well I haven't doing much to change my behavior but I have changed my outlook on things. Its a great thing I guess. Well what else.
While I should be confident I am lacking a few things. Well I am tired and I want to go to sleep but I realize that could be just a sign of me being lazy. I don't think I am lazy but I just want to stay focused on my book. Or writing my blog. I have a lot of things to talk about. But I guess it would start with the fact that my uncle is in town. I am pretty excited that he is here but at times I feel as if he is acting lazier then me. I know that seems like a shock! But He is a great guy and I have fun with him but I don't really have anything in common with him. I thought I would but I was wrong.
Well, my grandmother is always cold and I am sweating bullets. Its a terrible situation, and to make things worse when I try at least to put the A.C. on she turns the heater to 89 to 86 and I get sick. My grandmother is a great person but just to much is to much.
Well, I am going to write some more later.
Saturday, December 31, 2005
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Saturday, December 03, 2005
So shoot me,
Dearest Readers,
It has been a long time since I have written anything on this blog. Well a lot of things have happend since my last entry. First off I am sorry that I kept you guys out of the loop. Well I have been busy with holidays and me going to support groups. So when I do find time to write I get side-tracked and totally lose intrest. Well a few things have changed since my last post. First I have stopped drinking. Yeah I have stopped for now, a good 21 days since I last tasted alcohol. And you know what, it feels awesome. I have actually lost some weight and I am no longer as swollen as I used to be. Why I quit drinking is a choice I made. I realized that I could of been an alcoholic, but rather than admitting I have a problem, I decided to stop.
Well, aside from my abstinating of Alcohol. I have been busy being more socialable. I have been working on a new story idea. My latest idea is following or learning about the tailgate culture here in Houston. Doing so, I have followed people's tailgating and learned a few secrets that could be used for my next book. So I think. Well I think that so far, tailgating is basically fans who don't want to spend a lot of money on Beer inside the stadium.
Well, some tailgating things are great, while others I feel as if I am an outsider looking in.
So anyway, I have decided to follow tailgate. I have also been busy looking for a publisher. So far, I haven't one that really impresses me. I am still writing but I am mostly writing notes for my book.
Well, I have seen a few old friends that I haven't seen in ages and told them the news about my sobriety. I saw my first love, a few weeks ago, which was great except that I made a total ass out of myself. She wasn't mad, but I could tell that mom was. She is so understanding, Stephie. She is working so hard to get recognized in the fashion industry. She works for such prestigious cliental,that I am surprised that I am not seeing her on any of those glamour magazines.
Well, one thing that struck me with Stephanie, is that she is so relaxed and that she smells like lilac. Its a nice smell, but when she dresses up, when she meets clients, she looks really sexy. When its just the two of us,she dresses, Annie Hall like, wearing a tie and button shirt. It's kind of weird but she still looks good either way.
She asked me something that really stuck to me,she asked If I still had feelings for her. That question really made me think, do I? Well, she told me she had strong feelings for me but didn't know what to do. I told her I wish I had the answer quickily. My heart had told me, she was meant for me, but my brain can't stand the long distance part. So I had told her I needed to think it over.
Aside from Steph's arrival. I dealt with a major loss.A friend, I met at one of my support groups, who was battling, the same problems, that I faced died. It was a huge loss for me , cause she seemed to understand me more than anybody else. I didn't react to her death until a Sunday. Then I felt like my whole body was drained. That really hurt and I feared I may of stepped into psychosis. So I became alienated and oblivious to anyone or anything surrounding me. So I thought write about it.
Well anyway, My grandma is in town. I am happy that she is, that way I can raise hell but also be good at the same time. We are still the greatest of friends but sometime she acts like she is getting old. I never found that. Well I am thrilled she is spending X-mas with us. So is my uncle, so we can truly have a X-mas to remember.
I am ready to start my day. I hope that this is all I have to say for now. Once again, I am sorry for not writing anything sooner. I promise to write more the next time.
For now, bye.
It has been a long time since I have written anything on this blog. Well a lot of things have happend since my last entry. First off I am sorry that I kept you guys out of the loop. Well I have been busy with holidays and me going to support groups. So when I do find time to write I get side-tracked and totally lose intrest. Well a few things have changed since my last post. First I have stopped drinking. Yeah I have stopped for now, a good 21 days since I last tasted alcohol. And you know what, it feels awesome. I have actually lost some weight and I am no longer as swollen as I used to be. Why I quit drinking is a choice I made. I realized that I could of been an alcoholic, but rather than admitting I have a problem, I decided to stop.
Well, aside from my abstinating of Alcohol. I have been busy being more socialable. I have been working on a new story idea. My latest idea is following or learning about the tailgate culture here in Houston. Doing so, I have followed people's tailgating and learned a few secrets that could be used for my next book. So I think. Well I think that so far, tailgating is basically fans who don't want to spend a lot of money on Beer inside the stadium.
Well, some tailgating things are great, while others I feel as if I am an outsider looking in.
So anyway, I have decided to follow tailgate. I have also been busy looking for a publisher. So far, I haven't one that really impresses me. I am still writing but I am mostly writing notes for my book.
Well, I have seen a few old friends that I haven't seen in ages and told them the news about my sobriety. I saw my first love, a few weeks ago, which was great except that I made a total ass out of myself. She wasn't mad, but I could tell that mom was. She is so understanding, Stephie. She is working so hard to get recognized in the fashion industry. She works for such prestigious cliental,that I am surprised that I am not seeing her on any of those glamour magazines.
Well, one thing that struck me with Stephanie, is that she is so relaxed and that she smells like lilac. Its a nice smell, but when she dresses up, when she meets clients, she looks really sexy. When its just the two of us,she dresses, Annie Hall like, wearing a tie and button shirt. It's kind of weird but she still looks good either way.
She asked me something that really stuck to me,she asked If I still had feelings for her. That question really made me think, do I? Well, she told me she had strong feelings for me but didn't know what to do. I told her I wish I had the answer quickily. My heart had told me, she was meant for me, but my brain can't stand the long distance part. So I had told her I needed to think it over.
Aside from Steph's arrival. I dealt with a major loss.A friend, I met at one of my support groups, who was battling, the same problems, that I faced died. It was a huge loss for me , cause she seemed to understand me more than anybody else. I didn't react to her death until a Sunday. Then I felt like my whole body was drained. That really hurt and I feared I may of stepped into psychosis. So I became alienated and oblivious to anyone or anything surrounding me. So I thought write about it.
Well anyway, My grandma is in town. I am happy that she is, that way I can raise hell but also be good at the same time. We are still the greatest of friends but sometime she acts like she is getting old. I never found that. Well I am thrilled she is spending X-mas with us. So is my uncle, so we can truly have a X-mas to remember.
I am ready to start my day. I hope that this is all I have to say for now. Once again, I am sorry for not writing anything sooner. I promise to write more the next time.
For now, bye.
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