a movie review of The Terminal and other things I did today

Well Cable is Out and Well nothing exciting has happend. I did have a busy day today. I watched two movies. While writing the first post I saw Superman IV which I loved and I saw the Terminal, which was a great film but was awfully long though. The only problem I had with the film was that Tom Hanks had a terrible accent he sounded so much like Balki from Perfect Strangers and it sounded so corny it was hard to understand what he was saying. Stanley Tucci playing the INS head was awesome he does play a great role as the key buracratic dickhead who can't allow Hanks into the country. Catherine Zeta Jones was amazingly beautiful as the flight attendant who falls in love with the quirky guy living in the airport. What surprised me more was that she pulled off sounding so American even though she is from Wales. The minor characters like the food service guy and baggage handler and janitor were halarious people each playe there role well done but sometimes there story was a little too done for there own good. the Food Service guy needed Hanks to play Cyrano to attract the Customs woman that he has a crush on. Later on they get married. Which I never understood. They just met for a few seconds and then they get married.

Stanley Tucci role as the head of the INS is what making sure that everything Tom Ridge is talking about protecting in Homeland Security.

But all in all the movie was excellent. I found the film to be **** out ***** four out of five
because it was it was too long.

Well aside from watching the Terminal, I took a nap and slept for an hour and a half. I was so tired and infact I plan on sleeping once I finish writing this. I did what I was setting out to do. I did do most of the things I planned but I did do some research but I spent most of the day relaxing watching tv with mom. Or napping in my bed.I think I love my bed when its nicely made and nicely folded rather than in a big pile. I guess I will fix that by making my bed every day. Maxine is sleeping on the couch again and mom is reading in her room and dad is reading and his. So I should be doing something productive but I am keeping myself entertained by writing.
I ate too much dinner and I feel sick, like I am going to throw up but I am also feeling like I am going to explode. Either way its not a good feeling. I am going to lie down and relax maybe I will close my eyes and dream. Tommorow is going to be a busy day but I hope to stay asleep for another few hours. I am dead tired right now My body is telling me I should go to sleep.

Mother's Day A Day To Take Action

I had a wonderful dinner with the family, and well I am watching Superman IV. Though the film is a cheesey film and totally an 80s with Jon Cryer film its still rocks. I love Superman and I have said it again that I plan on camping out for its release date for Superman Returns next year. I know that a lot of those nerds do that for Star Wars, I mean I could order the tickets online which I am going to ask dad if I can use his credit card to do to but I figure it will still rock if I can do that but it will still be awesome to watch the movie. I am still a big ass fan of the man in tights.

I have always been a fan of Superman since I was 5. I think Superman and I have a lot of things in common, we both have secrets that we can't really share with people for the fear that people don't really explain them or we would be made fun of or that people would laugh at or be hurt.

Also, we have our honesty to protect, plus I have the Clarkness inside of me that I am so nice to everyone that I am such a nerd that everyone doesn't know what to get from. I see myself more of a Clark like Jillian told me. I am such a bizarre person that no one knows if I am the real deal or not. I am ackward and strange but I am smart and aware of my surroundings but I have this secret that I am afraid to share my true emotions to the world.
I hope that I don't hurt anyone by letting them know my true feelings to anybody. That is why I never allowed people to know about my illnesses and I bullshitted people. Its all a psyschological. If I told them the truth, they would labled me a freak or treated me like I was a nut job, but if I hid the truth from them they would see me as just a mild mannered person. Either way I am happy being labled normal. I guess being me, is hard. I hate that I am torn to tell people who the real me is. I mean the human side is telling me tell the truth that I am mentally ill that I have a hard time tellling what is real and whats is a delusion. I guess writing about it is easier. I guess thats what life is about with my condition. Thinking about! Struggling about life is hard. I fear I have lost all my friends if I simply tell the truth to them.

I am planning on working today and piecing it all together and working on a way to explaining it to all my mind to make logical sense of it. I have to figure it out. I have a problem. I have to solve it and I have to right the wrongs. So I don't do them again. I think Jillian, could help me out with that, first be honest with her and tell her how I feel. Tell Vivian tommorow I have to see her immediately so I don't go off the deep end. I need someone to talk to. Get a reality check! Solve my issues. Snap out of this fantasy world I've created and try to focus on to reality. Focus on real things do things that are real.

OK, today I am i am planning on doing things like working on this blog. Thats real! I am going to e-mail Silivia, thats real. I am going to talk things over with myself, thats real. I am going to work things over. I am going to see some pics that someone scanned and retouched them and put them on this blog thats real.

So far, I feel better now I am going to take a deep breath and begin. OK :-) I am going to talk with dad.

I am Tired

I am so tired,
I had a pretty busy day today. I woke up at 6:45 am and I didn't felt like I could move but I did and well I started my day at 10. I did my laundry and vaccumed the floors. After I vaccumed I started cleaning the whole house and boy that was a lot of work. I am sleepy. I haven't felt this sleepy but a good tired. I watched the Kentucky Derby and Giacomo won, I never knew that a long shot and if I was pulling for a horse I would of pulled for that horse cause it had a cool name. I am so sore and from all that work I did today.
My reward for the hard work is dinner at Ruths Chris Steak House. Also tommorow is Mothers Day and I did all this work for mom so she didn't have to work to keep the house clean. I worked hard in keeping it clean

Well, I am going to write more later providing I don't fall asleep on my steak tonight.

love to write again.

I FEEL SO BLAH

WHAT A DAY!

What a day! I fear I am slipping back into Psychosis! Or at least that is what I am telling myself at this very moment. I am being aware of my surroundings, I caught myself aware that I pulled a few slip backs earlier but I didn't know that I did that but I am doing them again and again. My head is killing me and yet I am doing them. I told Gardner and the Managers the truth today and hopefully they understand and that they don't fire me. I am scared. I know what I did was wrong and well I am ashamed I did it but I know I would possibly do it again if I wasn't medicated right.

I guess I am back into psychosis fearing that I hurt myself in the long run. I will do some work tonight and read my book and figure out what I can do about it. I am tired and yet I am not sleepy. I am afraid to tell mom that I am going back into psychosis for she'll put me back in the hospital but I guess thats where I belong. I need a break from it all no more Valhalla for a while. I just need time to think and relax. Damn it A you really made me mad for thinking these thoughts. I shouldn't of worried about these things. I know its no big deal I could of simply told M the truth.

Wondering why I feel so confused, am I wrong to think this way. I know I shouldn't be angry with him but I am kind of pissed off that I tried to right the wrongs I've created. I'll call for an appointment with Vivian on Monday. I am scared! I am getting to worked up for nothing, maybe they will just think of it as nothing or maybe they will kick me out of campus. Oh well! Life goes right! Tonight I am going to Target with mom! woohoo! I guess thats where my excitement is going to take me.

Well, my mind is a blank right now I don't know what to think any more I feel sad and I feel confused I just wish I knew what to feel. Well I am going to relax and watch some good tv.

Lucky Dog Vendor, This is one of the pictures I retouched that I mentioned as an updated 

Its Cinqo de Mayo

Well yay! Another Cinqo De Mayo and this one is especially awesome cause its 05 o5 o5 totally rocks. Well I am thrilled about I am thinking of going to Valhalla to drink a Dos XX to celebrate with the F&E guys. I am wearing my Cinqo De Mayo Shirt my new shirt I got for the Wedding hopefully it will remain clean and I will send it cleaners on Saturday. But anyway I had a pretty eventful day yesterday I worked on this blog and spent a few hours working on this and trying and edited it. Now I am beginning to see how the downloading pictures work and make them look fancy. I am pretty happy that my pictures are being to look fancy and I am being to have them look museum quality. I take time cropping them and making them look like an exhibit quality too bad I don't have a digital printer to print these fine ass pictures.

Well, I also happy that I have written a post for the second time and I think I am planning on writing a post everyday even on the weekend so I don't forget. Well,I am in the process of watching Ellen, somehow the show is a little stupid but I still watch it why because its like a train wreck, you can't stop but look at it.

I watch the show waiting for the show I do watch from 11-1 Unsolved Mysteries on Lifetime,even though most of the time the show is a rerun or they repeat the stories that previously aired.

Well, I am going to eat something and then going to do some research on somethings I'll be back later to write some more but for now I guess thats all I have to say for now.

Female Bike and Chug Team at Beer Bike 2005 

Beer Soccer at Rice Lacross Field, The beer lasted only the first hour of the game 

i had a friend take this picture of me on the Bike track during Beer Bike Practice the day before the race even though I couldn't participate for the race I did have a great time of 30 seconds 51 mil 

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This is a funny picture of a baby teething on a Saint Arnolds 

Day One

Well this is my first blog on this site and I have figured I should try to introduce myself. I am a young writer who had written several short stories and poems and I finished my first novel, Fire at the Hummingbird Inn. It's a Romance Crime Novel in set in Boston. The story element has the element of Law & Order, yet of sensuality of a good romance novel. I have had people who have read it and they have said its pretty good and well written. So I think I have the knack I have for writing and that I plan on doing that as a career. I want to be a writer like my father.


I am sore and in a heck of a lot of pain but thats mostly due from me having lupus. I have lupus a strange blood immune disorder that effects my blood, organs and muscle structure and sometimes it effects my bones and mostly it hurts when i try to sit and walk. I can't do much without stretching. So I am in a lot of pain, the dog is in the same way she has a lot of pain too, she doesn't have lupus but she was hit by a car on Sunday. I have a 7 month old puppy Maxine.

Well also if I am a passionate Democrat and I am very vocal against my policies against President Bush's policies and the whole Republican side of things. A lot of people will call me a leftist and I am not a shame to say that I am.

I am also very critical about what is seen on t.v. and I give my criticism about everything and I am sarcastic about just about everything. I was raised that way so if you don't like don't like it then read someone else's blog.


I also listen to all types of music, and yes I make fun of that too. Whatever the subject is I know there can be a joke to be made fun out of it.

i find humour in my writings and also in my every day life. I have my friends who sometimes don't get most of my jokes some of them go over there heads. But I still aim to make them laugh. But I do have a serious side, and I do work on that most of the time when I am focused on something but I do like having fun.

Well,I am going to rest my muscles and hopefully I can feel better cause I hate being so sore.