Sleep My Sheep Sleep.

I got a haircut today and boy do I look super sharp and I look and I feel nice. But I am not as fat as I was before but I am still not as skinny as I want to be. I am sore and there are throbbing pains in my lower calves. I really hate having lupus, it causes so much agony in the muscles and I also am sticky feel sick. I have drank a lot of water when I got home. But I have taken a break from walking and I need to charge my batteries.

My batteries are like in low power slowly going back to full strength but I am getting my energy back. I am tired but I don't want to nap, we are going to that E-bay shop today hopefully they can sell my stuff quickily. I really need the money and hate that I am sort of broke. I no longer work at Valhalla, the managers decided I should no longer be bartender. Its upsetting to me but I am welcomed back as a customer. I mean I wasn't paid for working there but I did enjoy being behind the bar.

Well I just got back from the Ebay shop and well that was a total let down. I can't sell any of the stuff I was planning to sell so I am going to ask dad to see if he can help me sell it on his own account. I mean its so boring here I may take a nap my muscles are killing me. I hate feeling sick my bones and my head are throbbing and every part of my body is also killing me. I got a haircut. I am broke and I have to wait till Friday to get paid. Plus I don't think of going anytime soon to Valhalla.

Wellthe dog is sleeping on the couch and dad is reading in the living room and I am too tired to write the list of stuff I want to sell so I'd do that when I wake up. Hopefully I'll have enough energy when I wake up. Another day with pain and the worse part of it is I deal with and I can't believe that Lupus is what is kicking my ass and making me worse then before. I hate having this disease. I can't be in the sun for only 30 minutes before my organs turn into soup. Its like God wants to tell me I created the Sun so you can't play in it. I am sick of being sick. Well,I am going to drink more water and write a few e-mails or go to sleep and then write the e-mails. Either way I am tired of being so sore that I can't move any part of my body without hearing the sounds of my muscles cracking.

My bones are like jello. Speaking of jello, I think I'll eat some orange jello. I ate some yesterday and that was good. I tend to ramble about stupid things if you didn't notice.

Well I am losing the battle of weight gain but I am still a bit fat but I am going to lose a lot more weight soon. I am cutting down on midnight snacks. Eating healthy is my plan. AH CRAP MY FEET ARE SWELLING AGAIN.
I AM GOING TO BED.